It was brought to my attention in a call last night ‘I DO NOT WANT’ to let go of the Duran Duran Access All Areas tour passes I am giving away in the competition I am running.
I have an attachment to them.
There is a block.
It was suggested I should wait till I am ready to give them away. Agreed, but I want to stretch.
For me it is a clearing exercise.
I am choosing to clear the block and let go.
So what is it?
What is the block?
From a logical stand point the passes have no use to me whatsoever.
Yes, they represent my memories of 15 years touring with Duran Duran as a synthesiser programmer, but beyond that they are pieces of plastic kicking around my house.
The idea that they may be worth $100 each on eBay is of no interest to me either.
I can think of easier ways of making $100.
So where is it?
Where is the block?
What am I trying to remain in control of and why won’t I let go?
It doesn’t end there either.
I have another competition running. It has NO entries. Again it is blocked. And if there is a block, the block must be in me.
The second competition is for a £500 motorcycle. The beneficiary will be a teenager.
The teenager has to find a mentor to win. Someone who will commit to training them how to build a bike. The idea being that the skills to build a bike will be passed to the next generation of bike builders. There is no shortage of mentors willing to pass on their knowledge – so again it has to be me.
The second competition is really important to me. When I have the money, my ambition is to set up a transport museum. I want to employ master craftsmen, old guys in their sixties and seventies and I want to employ teenagers and have the old guys teach them to be craftsmen.
But I thought, why wait till I have the money. I have a spare motorcycle I could give away. Why don’t I start doing it now?
I decided to do one of the exercises in my book to see if I could find a solution.
What came to mind surprised me.
It was a story of mistrust.
And my mistrust stems from a belief I inherited, a belief that is somewhat harder to shift than one I created the evidence for.
My story goes, when my Grandfather retired, he decided to sell his large country farm and put his money into stocks and bonds.
Local developers approached him to buy individual plots to build on, but my Grandfather refused to sell the farm as anything other than a going concern.
He was a genuine farmer and grew broccoli, kept cows, sheep and pigs and while he made a lot of money from spring cabbage, he liked to do a bit of everything.
He even wrote a book or two and you can find “Good Pig Keeping” and “Good Sheep Farming” on Amazon or eBay by running a search for Noel Lea Tinley
Anyway after all the offers and schemes, he finally found someone to sell the farm to and settled into retirement.
He didn’t aim to get the best price he could, he aimed to keep the farm together as a going concern.
So what happened?
Within months of buying the farm, the purchaser had planning permission and was selling it off as plots.
They even converted the barn into flats.
What is left of the farm today?
A single undeveloped field which belongs to my father and his two siblings.
I believe I know how he felt.
In my book The Logic Of Attraction I talk a lot about challenging beliefs. I actually say:
Find new evidence to challenge them. If you know their origin, check in with the person you inherited them from.
Make sure you got the right end of the stick. Maybe the person has cleared that belief for himself or herself, changed their mind, or learned something new since they taught you?
So I checked in with Dad today and I asked how Grandfather Noel had coped with what had happened.
It seems I have made up my own story about it. My story is that it really bothered him.
The reality of it is that after the farm sold, he lost interest. He had the money for his retirement and when he died, my Grandmother had plenty of money until her death.
I think my version of the story is the source of my block and I have been avoiding making the same mistake.
So, I guess I need to look at what it would mean if someone sold the things I am giving away and profited from the proceeds.
I guess I would feel like I had been suckered. (How I think my Grandfather must have felt).
I guess the DURAN DURAN competition is complex so that I can make sure the winner is not a profiteer.
I guess the motorcycle competition is the same.
Should I choose the wrong person to give the prize to?
I would feel like a bit of an idiot.
Can I trust that the Universe will guide me to give it to exactly the right person?
Yes, I think I can.
In LOVE, enjoy my competitions and I look forward to picking the winners soon.
Duran competition here: http://aspergineering.com/blog/index.php/2009/02/access-all-areas
Motorcycle competition here: http://www.britchopper.co.uk/forum/viewtopic.php?t=14939
See you on the other side of the looking glass,