Christmas Suicide Song

Sometimes Suicide • A Christmas Suicide Song

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Dear Listener;

I am hoping to grab your attention and make you think.

If you buy the song from iTunes then please also check out the blog as there are a number of FREE remixes which you can download from SoundCloud as well as videos on YouTube.

I want to bring the issue of suicide into the public arena in a positive light.

When we ignore people’s feelings and try and brush them aside, terrible things can happen.

Suicidal people can feel even worse when they can’t talk things through and letting people speak about their feelings will help them to feel acknowledged.

The truth about suicide is, that it affects more people than you think. Feelings get bottled up and people put a brave face on things. We live through the tinsel emotions of Christmas in a pretense.

How it is for me.

I am diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome.

I get very frustrated with life and I sometimes wish I was dead.

It is hard to put this into words and it is not something people tend to share about themselves.

I am usually met with “well it can’t be that bad or you wouldn’t be talking about it.”

I am not telling you this because I want you to feel sorry for me. I am telling you this because I want you to be brave enough to share how you really feel too, so that together we can heal one another through genuine big love.

We need to connect and buying gifts and eating and drinking too much does not always help us to do that.

How suicide affected me.

Many years ago, I ended up in hospital on Christmas day.

If I had had someone to talk to about how I felt, I would not have done that.

I want to bring suicide at Christmas out into the open. Let’s stop making this taboo so that people who need to talk can.

I have been in a position where I picked up an answering machine message from a friend after they died.

I have been thinking about it off and on for ten years. This song is about that person.

Maybe they wanted to talk about it?

Maybe a cry for help came just too late?

Society needs to release people from this taboo.

How suicide affects you.

You should not feel ashamed about the way you feel and acknowledging your darkest emotions can give you access to dealing with them.

The point is to share and see what needs to be healed.

Why should anyone have to commit suicide?

Please help to share this and get it into the charts so it can be discussed nationally and openly.


The views expressed here are personal views and do not constitute advice about suicide.

If you need more information about suicide, or you need help, or would simply like to make a donation, please email



  1. People don’t want to hear about other people’s sorrows. Don’t show any emotions on social media or you’ll be unfriended. People turn their backs. Or simply say it’s o.k. things aren’t that bad, are they? Or even people getting angry with you as it is classified as self pity. And then, when someone takes his own life, they wonder why they never noticed anything. I’ve been wanting to write a blog about the taboo on lonelyness, but still ain’t brave enough.


  2. Just in awe with your brave heart Mark. I was 12 when I tried to end my life, then again at 16. I never talked about it or was able to explain why to anyone. This blog and your song hit home very deep. You always give a clear light on subject many are afraid to talk about. Thank you for this, you WILL help many. Love and light to you always.


  3. Hi Mark, I am a faithful follower of the Sonic State podcast. Thanks so much for your song. This time of year I share my gifts with others as a church musician, but in reality my spiritual condition can be quite poor. I really, appreciate your honesty, that’s what true spirituality is all about.


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